Dear Family,

I am currently relaxing. I have no desire to do anything but sit with a quite mind. I could read but wish not to for I like this silent mind that I have for once in a long time. I could think about the future but that is a waste at the moment because I am not moving anywhere in time now so at the moment I will stay in the present thought of nothingness. The chains and freedoms of the past are clear to see, nothing new to me and nothing to worry about in this moment. I am satisfied with just silence and sitting.

Why? Why am I so satisfied with just sitting...but there is more beneath my chest. A heart beat that races with my thought of I am eager to live. I understand living is not thinking of the future, nor how to fix/accept the past, but enjoying the moment relaxing, being confident in the hope that everything is going to be alright. It is not in my power to control everything.

It is not in my power to control everything-what a freeing statement.


I am okay, I am free.