Dear family of Christ,
I am on vacation in Colorado with my good friend Joe Mills. He is lavishing his love on me by serving me, giving me gifts, and being with me. Its great! I am really grate full for his blessings and care in my life.
I have walked around the neighborhood with Jesus and I am convinced of his love for his people again. I love him loving us.
He spoke some very encouraging words to me over the day and I am excited to finish my term with YWAM Boston. God re-assured me of his profound ways through facing difficulties. Being in YWAM is not easy but being loved by God and allowing Him to set things in focus is the key for continuing in anything.
Being here is a great time for me to spend a lot of time in the presence of God with less distraction. The spiritual atmosphere is different too right now, I am being anointed by God to rest and be re-filled.
Pray for me to be in the Spirit and receive his peace of mind.
Goodnight.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Dear "non-believers", "prechristians"
I am beginning to understand your view of me and others whom claim to be christians, calimed by a loving God but show very little consern for his neightbor.
I have been going through some deep things recently where I am skeptical of programs, advice that is from a christian because I fear their adgenda for me to become like them or "perfect", "good for God", good to finally carry the term christian.
I am weray of programs recently because I am conviced a program can not change a persons heart, motives, ideas, understanding. I know it is only the voice and love of God that can change a mans core being. It is up to the individual to allow God to have His way in their deep internal life too, the only praise a man gets in the end is he responds to God "Yes".
My dear Pre-chiristains, I understand the fear of a hidden adgenda. I understand feeling awkward when some one is talking to you about Jesus and changing your life because they view something evil and sinful which means your in a place far from God. I understand the fear of being missunderstood and not given the opportunity to explain.
I understand and I am sorry for missunderstanding you, placing fear upon you, giving you an awkward moment that shows me to be human and you to be a creature.
God has given me a lot of humility in these last few weeks of my life by allowing me to see my short comings and need for him. I have been loved by God which spures insecurities,fears, doubts, hurts that I do not acknowlegde. Its awesome to be loved by God and to know I am a hurt human being.
My dear Brothers and Sisters we are loved. I am looking forward to one day sharing the love of God with you by empathy, deed, and word. I am very excited for you to tell me about the love of God and sharing Him with me through empathy, deed, and word. Have a good night.
I am beginning to understand your view of me and others whom claim to be christians, calimed by a loving God but show very little consern for his neightbor.
I have been going through some deep things recently where I am skeptical of programs, advice that is from a christian because I fear their adgenda for me to become like them or "perfect", "good for God", good to finally carry the term christian.
I am weray of programs recently because I am conviced a program can not change a persons heart, motives, ideas, understanding. I know it is only the voice and love of God that can change a mans core being. It is up to the individual to allow God to have His way in their deep internal life too, the only praise a man gets in the end is he responds to God "Yes".
My dear Pre-chiristains, I understand the fear of a hidden adgenda. I understand feeling awkward when some one is talking to you about Jesus and changing your life because they view something evil and sinful which means your in a place far from God. I understand the fear of being missunderstood and not given the opportunity to explain.
I understand and I am sorry for missunderstanding you, placing fear upon you, giving you an awkward moment that shows me to be human and you to be a creature.
God has given me a lot of humility in these last few weeks of my life by allowing me to see my short comings and need for him. I have been loved by God which spures insecurities,fears, doubts, hurts that I do not acknowlegde. Its awesome to be loved by God and to know I am a hurt human being.
My dear Brothers and Sisters we are loved. I am looking forward to one day sharing the love of God with you by empathy, deed, and word. I am very excited for you to tell me about the love of God and sharing Him with me through empathy, deed, and word. Have a good night.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
I have been stepping down from "leadership", "ministry" recently because God has been doing works in my heart of redemption. I am not struggling but finding myself in areas of belief that I never knew I believed in or wanted to acknowledge my belief in. I'm learning and maturing. Its a great progress and not in vain but in glorification of our God, Jesus Christ. I am not perfect but God is good and perfect. I love him and am being LOVED by Him.
I have been realizing I came here to build giants here in Boston but now I see God is building the giant in me first to build up others. Its a hurtful, sweet, fun process and it will last a life time. For now my influence is not much but its okay. God will get the glory of it all in the end and that is my purpose and joy.
To the love of God forever and ever. Amen.
I have been realizing I came here to build giants here in Boston but now I see God is building the giant in me first to build up others. Its a hurtful, sweet, fun process and it will last a life time. For now my influence is not much but its okay. God will get the glory of it all in the end and that is my purpose and joy.
To the love of God forever and ever. Amen.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
"No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end;
I don't wanna cycle, recycle revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all of his friends."-Coldplay
"I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my heart"-The Darkness
"Don't wait, Don't wait
The lights will flash and fade away
The days will pass you by
Don't wait
To lay your armor down" Dashboard Confessional.
I don't wanna cycle, recycle revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all of his friends."-Coldplay
"I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my heart"-The Darkness
"Don't wait, Don't wait
The lights will flash and fade away
The days will pass you by
Don't wait
To lay your armor down" Dashboard Confessional.
Monday, February 28, 2011
I wish I could shine but the light is dual.
Every time I am on the bus, train, walking about the city I cant help but think about how I am surrounded by SO many people and yet have very few friends. This makes me sad and burden because it has been two and a half years of continuing to try and connect but nothing is happening. I want friends. I want somebody to love!
Its difficult to be alone. Its over rated to have solitude.
All I can do is wait for friends to come around. I am trying and I will continue to try out here for friends. People I could relate to. Its just a difficult moment.
Pray with me for friendship.
Every time I am on the bus, train, walking about the city I cant help but think about how I am surrounded by SO many people and yet have very few friends. This makes me sad and burden because it has been two and a half years of continuing to try and connect but nothing is happening. I want friends. I want somebody to love!
Its difficult to be alone. Its over rated to have solitude.
All I can do is wait for friends to come around. I am trying and I will continue to try out here for friends. People I could relate to. Its just a difficult moment.
Pray with me for friendship.
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